One Day

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Dear Future,

It’s the people that know you best, that you love most, that can hurt you most cruelly. My heart bleeds and cries for the time I didn’t know disappointment. Your words cut deep and your actions, or the lack thereof, even more. I starve for when I will be immune to whatever you do and say. For a time when you will have no effect on me.

One day, one glorious day, my pain will be yours, your lack of empathy will be mine. I will make it out stronger and better but you will live in the past and regret everything you could have done and everything you actually did. My heart breaks but soon nothing will be left to crumble and from the ashy fragments I’ll rebuild something even stronger.



Someone with Heartache



Everything is better with you around. I make the same meal for myself but it can’t compare to the luxury my taste buds get when I eat the food with you. I close my eyes and inhale the rich scent of coffee in the morning and try to imagine you doing the same thing but the illusion evaporates as soon as I open my eyes. I go to bed at night, the bed we both love and find comfort it, but the emptiness fills my hollowness. I’ve stopped breathing in your lingering fragrance on the pillow; I turn my back on it. I don’t want to see it. I don’t want to smell it. I want to see and smell you.

Excerpt from Project No. 3

I’ve started writing my third book and have 117 pages already. My goal is to have 200 by the end of this week and then, I would love to have 300 when we leave for our trip next Sunday. It’s very ambitious. One (meaning my nagging subconsciousness) would say it’s too ambitious, but I’ll do my best and see what happens. I thought I would share an excerpt from the work in progress. It might make it to the end after editing, I might change it, take it out… You’ll have to read the book to know. 😉

Tell me your thoughts and don’t forget…

Eclipse is out on Friday and until then Equinox is available for free on Kindle.


“You’re a bitch.”

“So are you.” She closed the door and started shaking uncontrollably. Her mind was blank; all there was inside her was a sense of devastating déjà vu doubling the agony. Tears streaked down her face like a storm and she shook with sobs, barely catching her breath.

It was another failure. Again, she welcomed someone in her life and allowed them to take advantage of her and her love for them.

Slowly, the door opened and without looking up she knew it was Rylan. Those worn-out Chucks were a dead giveaway. She didn’t have it in her to lift her head and tell him to go away. She didn’t want anyone to see her like this; especially not him. The guy that stabbed her heart first. But she was deflated and had no fight in her left. The pain was tearing through her.

Rylan handed her a tissue and sat down on the floor next to her. He didn’t say anything; he didn’t touch her. He simply sat there with her, motionless, silent. He felt her pain and it was even more bitter knowing that he made her cry like this too.

Bad Day

Most of the time, she didn’t equate lonely with being alone; majority of the days, Val liked it. She preferred being alone because people normally brought baggage with them and she felt it all, leaving feeling heavier.

But today was a bad one. A day where she needed someone to be there; she needed someone to be next to her, no talking, no interaction. Just be there. Just be with her. Cooking alone, eating alone, working alone, sleeping alone…all she felt was alone.

Val thought about calling her dad, her mom had passed three years ago, but he was on a romantic getaway with his new girlfriend and she didn’t want to interrupt—it was no life-and-death matter. Her relationship with her brother hadn’t been the same since the death of their mother, so she didn’t feel like she could call him. The new people she met were more colleagues she hung out after work than friends; she wasn’t ready to open up to them.

And everyone else in her life…Val didn’t want to impose. And phone calls were just a Band-Aid on her bad day. She needed presence. Today, she was in desperate need for someone there. She was tired from starting a new job and a new life; she missed the boring routine she ran away from. Today, the known monotony sounded better than the exciting unknown.

She poured herself a glass of wine and grabbed her current read. Opening the balcony door, the glass slipped from her fingers and she stepped back. “Who are you?”

“Hi, neighbor. I thought I’d come introduce myself.” The stranger stood up and smirked. He was hot, she would give him that. But that’s not the point. Serial killers can be charming too.

“You could’ve used the door.”

“I could. I’m Ian,” he said, smiling.

She couldn’t stop her eyes from roaming his handsome face and his fit body. But he didn’t have to do that; he was well-aware how attractive his new neighbor was. How beautiful her hazel eyes were; how good she looked in her work attire; and how she looked even better in those workout clothes four times a week.

“I’m Val.”

“What are you reading?” he asked, taking the book from her. He surely didn’t consider personal boundaries; no one was allowed to touch her books.

“Just picked it up this morning. I heard it has great reviews.”

“It sucks.”

Her mouth fell open; it was one of her favorite authors. No work of his sucked. “Not possible.”

“Get me another glass of wine and I’ll tell you why you’re in for a rude awakening.”

He was direct and it was a quality she wasn’t used to. “If I get the wine, what do you bring to the table?”

“My charming looks and amazing viewpoints.”

She chuckled inwardly, not giving him the satisfaction. “Then you take this glass, because I’ll need a bottle.”

Ian laughed. “Sounds great. Everything is better after a bottle of wine.”



I didn’t start writing this with this story in mind but it had a mind of it own. So here we are.

Allow me to kindly remind you to go and buy my damn book. 🙂 Equinox is out and Eclipse is joining it on May 31. 

Eclipse excerpt

Eclipse is coming May 31 and I am so excited, so I wanted to share a special excerpt from the book. I won’t tell you where this part is included in the book—the start, middle or end—but I will tell you that I envisioned this series to represent stages of a committed relationships: meeting and building a relationship in book 1, getting engaged and married in book 2, and the last book will be about them as a married couple. I do hope you read it once it’s out. 🙂



My eyes follow the white carpet with the white petals strewn at the sides of it, candles carefully illuminating the way.

And at the end of it all, the most beautiful face, smiling brightly at me, his eyes full of love and affection. Despite the room’s exquisiteness, it all fades, it all disappears, as soon as my eyes get locked with Colton’s.

I count down my steps with each that I take.

Just five more.

My legs start moving faster, pulled towards him.

Just one more.

He takes my hand and immediately electricity shoots through me. It’s a sensation I never knew before and one I could never live without now that I’ve had a taste.

I can’t focus on the words; I can’t even confirm whether the person who is supposed to officiate our marriage is here. Those intense eyes that turn gentle as soon as they land on me have locked me in.

“Alexis and Colton have written their own vows they would like to say.”

Colton smiles warmly, caressing my cheek. “You’ve had me under a spell since the very first morning the universe let me see those bright eyes of yours. You were like a ghost following me everywhere I went, making it impossible to erase you. One short, routine moment made sure that I found the only person I want to share my life with. Without you there is no life worth living. Alexis, I will do everything to make you happy. I will give you all the love and respect I can and even more. You won’t have to ask for anything. I won’t stop until I give you the world, siren.”

Thank God for water-proof makeup. My tears start trailing down my face as I listen to his words, as I watch the sincerity and determination etched on his face. The words wrap around my heart, warming me.

“I love you. And hurry up so I can kiss you,” he whispers only to me, smiling.

“I love you and I promise I won’t obey you and will always challenge you.” Our audience starts chuckling but to me it seems as if they are behind a wall of haze, in a separate room. His face is all I see in focus as I continue. “Someone might not believe there is such a thing as perfection but you are perfect for me in every sense. You are my whole world, the one that matters most to me. You’ve touched my heart, soul and body. You are the reason why I finally feel complete, why I feel like I’ve finally found my place. With you I’ve found my home. I can’t wait to start my life with you. I promise to love you unconditionally and to never leave you. I am you and you are me. Forever. And I promise to minimize the use of the word okay.”

“And fine,” he adds to my vows.

Eclipse’s coming May 31

This year has been very busy, just like 2018, and May isn’t going to pump the breaks by the looks of it. Last week was quite erratic: we had to deal with postponing our trip to Sri Lanka for obvious reasons and find plan B. And what a back-up plan it was–we went to the Maldives. After the wedding we both went straight back to work and haven’t stopped working since, so we desperately needed a break and we hadn’t had our honeymoon yet. So two coconuts with one stone.


I read three books during our vacation: The Wedding Date, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck and Vicious. I liked all of them. The next I’m going to read is The Other Woman by Daniel Silva.

The vacation sadly ended and now I’m back to my routine, or rather trying to get back to it. Is it just me or is it hard to get back to the everyday you had before the vacation? But I am trying to hit the ground running.

I’ve changed the header/cover photos and am delighted to announce that I’ll be releasing my second book Eclipse, a sequel to Equinox, on May 31. I’m convinced the story and the drama will not let you down. I read somewhere that second books in a series normally disappoint (the second-book syndrome) but I guarantee that will not happen here. I approached each book as a standalone and as if the series ended with it. I will write the third and final one but not immediately.

Before leaving I was working on a draft for my next project, which doesn’t have a title yet, and I started writing it last night. I’m 2,300 words in and I’m jumping right back into it any second. It’s a story I’ve had in my head since I was a teen. I’ll give you more information soon and keep you posted.


What are you working on? Reading anything?